Anxious

Another good day! I want to sound more enthusiastic, but I feel kind of crappy at the moment. Not sure what it is. Feels like anxiety, but I don't know why I feel anxious. I had some fudge after dinner, and I wonder if it spiked my blood sugar? I really hope I'm not dealing with blood sugar issues now. I hate questioning myself. I want to feel good, and I don't know if it's something I'm eating, if I'm not eating enough, if I'm just stressed from being a mommy, ugh.

Anyway, I woke up and pumped, then Pepper woke up right away. I fed her and by the time I got her back to her crib, I was ready for breakfast. So I had oatmeal and coffee, and puttered around until she was up.

I didn't get hungry for a long time. I finally ate around 12:30, and had a Clif bar and banana walnut bread slice. Pepper went down for a 15 minute nap or so, and I was able to squeeze in G15 Warmup & Core Basics.

Again, I didnt get hungry for awhile after that. I had an open-face turkey sandwich (I swear that chipotle mayo is SO good), veggies, a persimmon (Im out now :( and theyre like $1.50 each!) and a piece of fudge, both before and after. I need to cut the fudge habit.

I went for a run with Pepper hoping she'd sleep, as she hadn't slept hardly at all. She didnt nap, but I had a good run. Once home I made a protein shake, and finished it right around when Kevin came home.

I didn't eat again until around 8. I just was never very hungry today, it was strange. I had 4oz of fajita meat, a slice of bread, sweet peas and fudge.

I want to feel like I did last week. I had so much energy, and I was just happy and excited. I don't know why I feel like crap this week. I know Pepper was acting better last week, maybe that's it. It's hard to be in control of your happiness when there's someone constantly trying to sabotage it, haha. I'm a huge fan of routine when I'm feeling down, so I think I need to focus on that. That will be my goal for next week.