205 lbs

Today was actually a great day. I got up after pumping and did Gilad's 15 express workouts (G15): Warm Up & Chest.

I had planned on hitting the gym later, so I didn't do as much as I normally would have. For breakfast I had oatmeal with a little protein powder and DUN DUN DUN, NO chocolate chips! Plus some coffee (creamer & sugar).

I got hungry again a few hours later after Pepper woke up and had a Fage with honey, PB & oatmeal squares. I really liked having the oatmeal squares, but I don't think PB is necessary. Honey probably isn't either, but one step at a time.

Lunch time I had a turkey/muenster/lettuce/chipotle mayo/mustard sandwich with an orange/celery/carrots. For dessert, I had 1 bar of Kit Kat. (as in 1 of the 4 bars on a Kit Kat). I liked having a treat, and will probably go back to having a square of super dark chocolate, even tho its a little more expensive.

I had an errand to run, and packed a baggie of raw almonds/dark choco chips, which I ate on the way back. That didn't really fill me, so once we got home I had a PB granola bar and half a banana.

Once Kevin got home, I had half an apple and a coffee (creamer & sugar), and we set out for a walk/jog, which was great. I had just gotten my Enell sports bra in, and I got to test it out (no more pain!). Now if only I could get my butt to stop jiggling, haha. We did about 35 minutes? I ran about 45% of it, I'd say. I run a little more each day. I want to get into the habit of this every day when Kevin gets home.

Dinner wasn't great (both in taste and nutritional value). When we had gone to HEB yesterday, Kevin got a chicken enchilada kit that came with free cookie dough. We made the enchiladas, and I had 1.5. Then Kevin decided to bake the last of our eggrolls. I really should have said no and had a veggie instead :/ For dessert, I had 1 bar of Kit Kat.

I feel okay now, but its only about 9. I worry I'll get hungry again, but I'll have some water or gum! All-in-all I ate about 2989 calories (my goal was 2300-2500*). More than I wanted, but I'm making progress. If this is me trying, I can only imagine how many calories I was mindlessly eating before.


One thing Im VERY proud of today was every time I opened the fridge, that cookie dough was right there. I resisted the temptation to eat a glob of it throughout the day. I also refrained from throwing some chocolate chips in my mouth while waiting for other food to be ready. Woo!!


Tomorrow, I want to focus on reducing my calories. I tend to rely on carbs to fill me up, but I should really focus on protein! If I get time tonight, I'm going to boil some eggs! I'm also going to eliminate creamer from my coffee, and I'm only going to have PB with my oatmeal. Also, if I do make a sandwich, I think I should go back to open-face. 200 calories for bread seems a little excessive!!

*Figuring out how many calories to eat is really frustrating. I know I need at LEAST 500 extra calories for breast milk. But it takes about 20 calories to make 1oz, so when I make 44oz, that's around 880 calories. My bodybugg said I burned 2459 calories today, but it gauges my calories burned by my muscles, and can't incorporate boob milk making. How much of that 880 is accounted for? If I do the straight math, then I had a 350 calorie deficit. If not, I had a 476 calorie surplus! Ugh.